Hopes-Reality-Complaint

holiday

2010-12-19T19:39:00.000-08:00

i do love these days

holiday-ing

and still holiday-ing

is gonna to be

lazy,

doing nothing,

doing everything,

and dreaming.

thinking

2010-12-17T17:39:00.000-08:00

i keep believing

the world is not fair

helping others will only make yourself tired?

what i get from joining such a big event

everybody was keep fighting for the event.

is that really everybody?

i keep asking myself....

i really learnt a lot...

being work together really can make me to know the person better.

there are:

who always keep running from everything.

keep running from works.

keep staying when get rewards.

who do the job half.

yes, he does do the work.

but, only half.

so, you do the half for him la...

who keeping themselves looks like very busy.

well, pretending is the natural behaviour of human.

what can we do?

who do the job from the beginning to the end.

they always do their job.

out of their job, do yourself la....

who do their job and do also the others job.

nothing to say about this.

just a big 'THANK YOU' for them.

i keep believing everybody do their job.

at last, i keep believing my believing was wrong.

what can i do?

just keep my eyes close and my mouth shut.

keep forgetting the bad things.

' DO MY BEST' for the next time?

i just keep believing myself.

yes, 'DO YOUR BEST' everyone.

the biggest joke of the world:

'i had do my best!'

thats mean you really can't have improvement again.

Smile everyone! XP

word to myself

2010-12-17T06:29:00.000-08:00

1、学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间。

2、学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，让别人看不穿你的伤心。

3、学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，要知道世界总是孤单的，地球也只有一个啊，它都寂寞那么久了，我们算什么。

4、学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，笑给别人看，哭给自己听就好。

5、学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。

6、学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。

7、学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。

8、学会满足，所谓知足常乐。想想小时候一颗糖果就可以开心一整天了。

9、学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做。

10、学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气，多了会惹人厌的。

11、学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。

12、学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。

E+M+O+ING

2010-12-09T05:28:00.000-08:00

just realise that i always want to post blog when i am emo-ing

or when i am

depressed
gloomy
moody
wistful
blue
down
morose
glum
melancholy
hypochondriac
low-spirited
dejected
melancholic
low
sulky
hag-ridden
lugubrious
downhearted
crestfallen
downcast
mirthless

what can i do?

Libra always have many friends

but only few(or none) of them

really have the the true friends to hear their words and hearts.

i can make you laugh in a second,

but when you laugh do I really happy?

make people laugh is easy, make self laugh is difficult,

my face is laughing,

does my heart happy too?

p/s: maybe i have to ask laughing 哥...

Reactivate

2010-12-07T19:32:00.000-08:00

suddenly fell like want to reactivate this blog again

let me update some status about myself

now study at UM, accounting

still satisfied with everything i have

(while sometimes really fell tired)

holdings three projects from UMAC (UM Accounting Club)

Two projects from 9th College (where am i staying now)

always be a busy and talkative person for everyone

always hopes that i can go back to my KT house

or sleep for the whole day

or eat non-stopping until bloated??

or play play and play

But,

the reality was always opposite from the hopes,

kinda disappointed?

no, i won't...

i keep believing,

hard works will come with full harvest?

true?

false?

thats me, always have like two characters inside myself (i am not crazy),

just sometimes( or always) will think too much...

written by,

alaeawawaianasataoan

untitled

2010-06-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

the time is flying

the sky is changing

the water is flowing

but

the people is still the same

people will change

but the true-self will not change

agree?

working

2010-04-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

Stay in Terengganu now

working

tired

working

tired

so tired

but I enjoyed

happy

~ LOVE Terengganu ~

winston

still working

welcome back

2010-04-07T09:30:00.000-07:00

its seem too long i din manage my blog
it is full with dust
i think is more than 3 inches
haha... a post after 8 months i think...
is still exam
4 more to go
then kaytee i am back
nice to meet with my old friends
sad to be seperate from my college friends
you you you you n you
will u still remember me?
do u still remember me?

just suddenly feel like want to post something so i write this post...^_^

GOOD LUCK to all KMK friends n well done to all for the whole year we stay together
All the best....

p/s: thanks Yan Xin, I was SHOCKED when u sms me..
u r the first n the only one who say good luck to me among kt friends.
good luck to ur final too.

from
zazaza
i am not winston

i get the letter...

2009-06-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

finally i get the jpa letter last 2 weeks
many people will think that jpa scholar is the best
BUT,
we are wrong... JPA will only giv u RM 250 per month and thats all
so we will same like other matriks student... study the whole year n u will only get RM 2500
then, JPA will not secure u to get any place n any courses in university...
so u will same like din get JPA scholar cause u really need to work very very hard because JPA will only sponsor u AFTER u get the surat tawaran from university n call them back...
BLA BLA BLA.. then if like my course is perakaunan then i hav to bond for 6 years...
a very clever strategy from JPA... if they cannot send u to overseas, then they will lock u at local...
Dear friends, do u happy because of u get LOCAL JPA scholarship?

by Winston,
using KMK library computer..

omline again

2009-06-02T20:29:00.000-07:00

wei wei...
finally got free time to publish this post...
at here everyday study n i think this is the most hardworking moment in my life...
i am still fine here, waiting for jpa letter,
i wonder how fast our pos malaysia kakitangan working speed?
1 week? 2 week? 1 month?
waiting n waiting...

life in kmk

2009-05-23T20:22:00.001-07:00

wei to all my buddy...
i am at kmk now tat is kolej matrikulasi kedah...
( i am now uing the school computer to publish this post)
at here not bad lo... except for the flies n insects n cats...
sorry to all cause i lost contact with u all so longtime...
Sorry lo n i am going now cause somebody is waiting to use this computer...

tagged...

2009-03-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to tag, listing their names and why you choose them. Don't forget to leave comment ( You're tagged) and to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tag you. Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. i like to keep my blog to hav three inches of dust because i am lazy to write blog
2. i am lazy to online because my hav no streamyx and my line is very very very slow...
3. i hav the difficult to choose between things and i hope anybody will always make decision for me..
4. i am now lazy to think what to write until sixteen things...
5. i hate cats and dogs and insects...
6. go as milk, back as espresso ( to all friends who kena ns...)
7. hope we will get scholarship or any chance to study in the field we like... :)
8. WHY? Why Sharon Chinese get A1... unbelievable...
9. ajak me earlier for the next party.. so i can take lift on tat day...
10. really sien going n coming back from school n times... to get the signature...
11. thank you Khye Vern for fetch me along these n times...
12. i am still blur blur --- my further study...
13. i like work in Yamaha.. the best work place...
14. i am happy now because only left two points to complete this tag...
15. i hope u will closed this page so tat i not need write another things...
16. thank you for didn't close this page and congratulation because u are wasting another minute to read my stupid sixteen things...

i would like to tag
1. Willian... i like to see u write stupid things
2. wilna... never see u write blog before...
3. chia ern.. if not ur blog will hav three inches dust
4. john... open a blog la.. please...
5. john teo... the best cock talker... always like to talk cock...
6. keat hwa.. unbelievable he is now at Australia...

scholarship

2009-03-17T06:13:00.000-07:00

Haiz...
scholarship scholarship n scholarship...
better hope i will kena one of them
or i can kena matrikulasi...
hope hope hope
tomorrow tomorrow n tomorrow
kena or tak kena also hav to continue further study (no matter in which way)
Haiz...

from,
person still blur blur in thinking his future...

Choose?

2009-03-14T08:15:00.000-07:00

Hmm...facing problem for further study?
people will say :"this XXX college good...
that XXX college also good...
wait for government la.....
study government de meh?
n many many more ..."
friends... choose wisely... always remember tat ur mon n dad earn money very susah...
think wisely before ur final decision..
don regret then change course after u pay school fee or after wat wat fee
even u r rich

HAHA... susah to choose between two course?
1. prepare a coin
2. toosed the coin
3. head for first choice n tail for second choice
4. forget about this post n continue ur life...

This post is just for fun.. don't take it seriously...

hahaha

2009-03-12T09:19:00.001-07:00

Dear all my friends n somebody who always like to take a look at my blog,
i would like to pronouced that i am now start to UPDATE my blog....
thanks...
-to be continued-

HAHA.... u all slow slow wait la.....

SEE...

2009-03-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

Kem Elit Siri 2 & 5

2008-08-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

Owei… long time din write blog liao

Kem elit siri 2

Bahasa Inggeris, Chemistry , and Physics

From there, I meet with many 高手 .. even they are our 同胞… bu some of them are friendly… then , I meet also a people who talk cock skill can even beat Eugene.. tat people really 扫场… tat time the urusetia come in and tick the attendance ..then she realize tat there are not enough people ..so she ask “yang tak hadir tu bilik apa?”
Then the talk cock 高手 say “ bilik air..” = _= ~
Then he continue talk cock….
In this camp I meet also many geng geng de teachers..
The teacher paling smart in terengganu ( Sir Mad ) cikgu Ahmad
The funniest teacher Cikgu Zamry
Very geng in acting de English teacher
And teach non-stop de kimia teacher… I really like their teaching way.. I am sure I learnt a lot from this camp

This camp really 爽 … study in air-cond room and good teacher.. Good work for JPN.

Kem Elit siri 5

Biology, Additional Mathematics , and Sejarah

I only rest for 3 days and the principal ask us to go for Kem Elit siri 5

This time really like heaven and hell if compare to last time

My roommates is Malay and his name is Hassan
This person very 吵水 … he talk non-stop in the room …
He mute the TV when somebody is talking….
He jump on all the bed….
He close the air-cond nor he set the temperature to 30 degree celcius…
He take supper ( Malay Kuih ) to eat inside the room and didn’t clean his hand and make the knob of the door become slippery and oily..
He always called his god not matter wat he is doing..
He even welcome me with his ‘salam ’(called his god again) everytime I enter the room
But he is very good in his result.. he answer every question from the teacher and always give reaction to the teacher…but for me is 吵水…
I am here wan to say here about the Biology teacher.. Teacher R*hay*.. I meet her before at the kem perkasa…
Walau a in this camp.. she asked us to closed all the book and discuss among friend …
Then at the last day morning I hav her sesi…we meet difficult and we asked for her help because we din really understand the question.. she write something for us and explain some only and asked us to draw the ‘ Mendel’s dihybrid cross ’( she din say this .. then we open the book to find ).. 半桶水 de I ma draw lo… and then ma draw wrong lo… she came for the second time and see my drawing… she say ‘ this is wrong … this is wrong… ”then the second word is “ saya rasa awak tidak pernah belajar ni ..”and she walked away without continue to teach us how to correct it..walau a… I memang tidak pernah belajar ni and I come here for you to teach me … you really SHIT!! Excuse me… I only study in her lesson for twice and I really don wan her to teach me even she is very geng.. geng liao so wat? You think everybody like u same geng meh?
Geng liao can show tat ugly face and non-stop insult people is it?(in Kem Perkasa she also insult other student) Her sound is sharp too..
Without a student you also cannot be a teacher so please lar ..please be kind to ur student…
In Kem Elit also show her ‘kind’..i really cannot imaging how is her in her school?

Then this camp like 酱lor.. nothing special..
Honestly, I prefer Kem Elit siri 2

Write with comparing two camp,
R*hay* ’s student…
* Siti Asmaq, I prefer your teaching

police and thief

2008-08-02T06:20:00.000-07:00

Just come back from Kem Perkasa SPM 2008

3 days talking cock and do practice…
Actually the camp is a study camp

Day 1
Chemistry slot…talk and talk and talk . just do the work when the teacher kap me
Tat teacher pronounce very funny, and draw wrong ionic bond : ) haha…
then she discuss and we copy and copy the answer…then before the period over, she give us a sheet of answer, I sweat…

Day 2
Physics slot and Additional Mathematics slot 1…
Suddenly felt very my mind all full with rubbish.. I cannot answer the question but our 同胞 tell the teacher answer for every question… I am too weak
A long free period from 12.30 to 3.00 wait for our 同胞 ..i hav a good sleep.

Day 3
Additional Mathematics slot 2 and Biology slot….
Wake up late in the morning
Hav no time to eat the breakfast and terus go to class
Biology slot 1 teacher is a good teacher, I know …
Then the slot 2 teacher like scare people cannot hear her voice…like the thunder non-stop hit the student ear, but she geng du…draw very beautiful but with doctor writing..

We hav many free time during this camp.. Always because our 同胞 want to pray
At night , we hav the game police and thief in our dorm…
We play until 2 a.m. …

From the camp..

A brother may not be a friend,
But a friend always be a brother…
Thanks to all brothers who care and help me along this camp…

After came back from this camp, I still hav another camp to go
Kem Elit SPM 2008 ( Sunday to Wedneday )
Sien ….

Boring blog about
Kem Perkasa SPM 2008 by
U see my blog u still don know who am I meh?

O… winks you... Continue our police and thief

wasted day

2008-07-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

another wasted day
no PNP
talking bullshit the whole day
wat happen to the school?
and
there are stupid camp at SMK Bukit Besar this weekend
cannot go back , must stay at the school.
why?
is it not very far from our house......

today lesson:

We fear the men we hate
and
hate the men we fear

today wasted day by
winston har?

wasted blog

2008-07-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

Today something terrible happen
When I got my kk book, I shocked with my kehadiran …
92.86 % wow! I get 100 % for 4 years and the last year I got 92.86 %
Every time I got there they din see me is it?
Am I invisible?
Or? Haiz... I find no reason why the kehadiran so worst..

Nvm...
Because
“ karam di laut boleh ditimba
karam di hati bilakah sudah “

we should not feel too sad for something
- 以平谈之心看待一切 –

OMG! I today realize tat I only left a very very very very very very very very few time before SPM to study .. Everybody who is Form 5, please study 3.5 hours per day...This is written at my class whiteboard = )

Today wasted blog prepared by
I am not Lew Winston

Luka di tangan nampak berdarah,
Luka di hati siapa nampak.

(Pantun above is picked from
‘Pantun Mengenang Nasib’
Antalogi Anak Laut,
Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka,
2000, halaman 3.)

important lesson

2008-07-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

今天，
2008 年7 月16 日，
有意义的一天，
上了半天
宝贵的
课。

此刻，
脑袋还停在
这
并非天天可学到的课。

lesson 1 :
Everybody think of change the world , but nobody think of change himself.

17 岁的我尚年轻 , 但已见过无数 lesson 1 的例子…
当然，我也是。

人，是很可笑的
有时知道自己是错的
但，还继续错下去
－无言－

lesson 2 : 忍让精神 , 你有吗？

人们都有不同的语言
这，就是要人类在
不同的语言下，
彼此沟通，
比手画语，
鸡同鸭讲，
偶尔，讯息表达错误，
人，会生气，
但，要忍让，
忍让划出一片天空。
－完毕－

问题出现，可能是语言问题，你有互相忍让吗？

lesson 3 : 误会

今天，看了《学海》
学到了以下内容

－误会往往是在不了解，不理智，感情极为冲动的情况下发生－

我
被人误会过，
也误会过别人，
被我误会的，
对不起，
误会我的，
谢谢你，
是你让我成长。

今天的结论：
我更加认识我自己，看清了一些事物，
悄悄的我来了，正如我悄悄的走了
不带走一片云彩，只留下一篇文章 …

lesson by ,
昨天的你
今天的我